Tag: Change

We Weren’t Born Ready

September 28th, 2021
Were we?

I was 19 maybe. 20? Yeah, I guess. At that age, which was three years ago, I came across a notion that says “living in the present.” What? What does that even mean? They told me not to live neither in the future nor the past. It was like someone has flickered a torch on a hidden spot in my mind. Living in the future. Living in the past. Why the hell haven’t I heard about this before? Does my society hate happiness that much?! I mean, all of what they used to do is to make me dream about the future and if I fail they make me look at my past to feel bad, sad, and maybe if I had a spare time, I’d probably learn something. THEY HAVE NEVER TOLD ME TO BE PRESENT.

Never.

Photo by Paweł L

The mechanism

If we want to break it down, we will follow the list modern societies have constructed:
- Grow up
- Eat
- Study
- Find out what are your hobbies
- Finish high school
- Go to college
- Find a job and fight to keep it and be successful at what you’re doing
- Find the right person to marry, or you know what just get engaged and let’s get over with this thing
- Children
- Parenting styles
- Save some money, so they can go to college
- Aren’t you retired yet?
- You are free now. Oh, no. I think you have so many diseases already
- …
- …
- ?
- …
- Dead
It’s kinda depressing yet funny because we all know that we have the courage to mock the list and break ourselves free. Nevertheless, the question is still not answered. Are we ready for this? For all of this? This chaos that is tremendously consuming us.

Now, when it comes to me, I’d rather have my own pause between each chapter. Let’s not forget that we are all might be reaching our final chapter no matter how much we try to avoid the daunting idea. That’s not the case though. I remind myself every now and then to stop running. It is not worth it. And run for what? And for who? For me? No, it’s stupid.

Three months ago I started exercising running literally this time not metaphorically. First few weeks, I was exhausting myself with intense running that had longer pace and faster finishing time. Guess what? It was stupid. Yes, I liked the feeling of being free, and there was a sort of feeling that I am a machine, and I can see the trees drifting by my side while I’m running as fast as a bullet. But, it was not a good practice. Of course, until I adjusted my approach and started focusing at the distance and most importantly the quality of running.

Note: writing about this is making feel guilty since I stopped running for a few weeks. Okay, for more than a month, happy now?

This made me realize that in life, running so fast isn’t a good sign of a hard worker. I made myself to take pauses between each fail, each rejection. Life is gonna throw so many rejections in your face. If you decide to run away, they will still run after you no matter what. Rejections, fails, bad feelings, and pain won’t stop. Without being so hard on yourself, just give yourself the time to face your life. Look at yourself in the mirror everyday you wake up in the morning. You’re still alive. What you’re gonna do about it? About being alive? Want to waste another day? Okay. Just Come back tomorrow and look again. What do you see? Potential? New day with so many opportunities? New people to meet? New jokes to make or hear? A new pain waiting to be healed? I don’t care if you believe in souls or not, but I believe there’s something inside you. Don’t even think to pursue your halted dreams because guess what? You are alive, and life to me is the ultimate dream that one day it’ll end and I’ll wake up. What about this dream? As simple as it is, what about being alive?

Are you ready?

Photo by Katrina Wright

We all whine how society is mean to us. At the end of the day, society is made of us. We are part of this structure. Every night I go to bed thinking that I exist here and only here. In my bedroom, curled up in my bed. This society outside of this room don’t really care. They don’t really read my mind at the moment and notice my pain. They don’t feel my very own feelings. I turn off my fancy Wi-Fi operated lights that are already dimmed to 10%, and say goodnight to Siri. And from now on, I’ll be asking myself everyday in the morning, “are you ready?”

Featured image by Jukan Tateisi
Reasons Why I Worry About Climate Change

August 20th, 2021

I guess I’m not the only one who has that guilt. The guilt of waiting and doing nothing. Yes, I still use plastic. I go grocery shopping where they make me go home with tons of necessary and unnecessary plastic bags. After I empty those plastic bags, I either toss them into the cabinet for another day or throw them away in a bigger plastic bag. I go to grab a plastic cup of coffee from Starbucks. I might be consuming beef more than I should. Now, did I do something about that? Did I stop? Did I consider change? No.

❝ We are forewarned — everything the scientists have been telling us will happen for 30 years now, is happening — but bigger and faster than predicted.❞
— John Kerry

Angela Dewan, CNN

The more I educate myself about climate change, the more guilt I feel and the more lonely I become. Why? Because I feel so many people are drifting away with other perpetual political dilemmas, and If you come to discuss climate change, you’d find that no one is interested. No one wants to listen. No one but you that feel the fear of losing your home, country, and most importantly dreams. I’ve seen so many people’s dreams being crushed by climate change. Man and his greed to achieve more and more success has become nothing but a villain that steps on other’s dreams.

Photo by Chris LeBoutillier

Will we stop soon?

I hate to be sure about stuff, but I’m not gonna lie. I feel one day we are all going to wake up and see what have we done. I wanted to write this post to share my feelings and educate about climate change until I found out that I’m no different than anyone else. I share the same guilt and big carbon footprint as any other human. What makes it harder that I’m aware of the problem, and I’m still keeping track of where are we heading by reading articles on a daily basis.

People on social media are so divided. Wait… We are all divided not only on social media even in real life. Politically, socially, even humanly divided. When it comes to Earth, we are also divided whether climate crisis is real or not. People are dying in some countries. They’re fighting their way through life just to survive and live normally. They just want shelter or an access to clean water and electricity. Out there in this tiny little world there are people that still eager to express themselves to their government, they’re craving freedom. They might not know how does it feel to be free. With that being said, it’s may be harder for us to fight our way through all of this chaos to spread our message about climate change.

Another thing I observed that people need some kind of a figure that they can follow, so then they can start taking action. Most of the famous climate change activists and environmentalists are under the observation whether they’re contradicting what they say and believe in or not. People take this as an excuse of not taking action. “He is driving his gas car. What a hypocrite! Oh, he’s on an airplane! Didn’t you say this is bad to Earth? I bet you had a ribeye steak, too. Why should we even follow and believe in what you’ve been saying?!”

Just a final thought, we are all in denial. And that sums it up.

Featured image by Alto Crew

Tag: Change

We Weren’t Born Ready

The mechanism

Reasons Why I Worry About Climate Change

Will we stop soon?